punkinfanta

i...cannot....give up....

i had my first workout with a trainer. i am a little weakling out of shape bitch.

i thought i would puke or cry. i didn't. i tried to stay strong. i cried when i got home.

diet...losing 80lbs...was nothing more than a mindfuck and headtrip. now that someone is pushing my body to

limits it hasn't seen, i am excited and terrified. i just want positivity. i just want support. i want someone who gets

it. i want someone to hold me and a hug.

i miss my mom...