punkinfanta

depressed as FUCK the last 3 days.

lonely. can't get dumb thoughts out of my head like "why focus on looking hot/getting healthy if i have no one to look hot for or spend my time with" and "why focus on making a lot of money if i have no one to spend my money with?!"

i have always been independent...but it's like almost to a fault. sometimes..scratch that...most times i think men think i am like impermeable to hurt because i am strong & independent??

i am gemini. two. i am still emotional and needy and as girly as they come.

i honestly do not understand men who shower girls with attention and gifts and love and romance...

i NEVER get those things. even in relationships...never. i always wore the pants, made decisions, breadwinner...

i never asked for those things either...but for fucks sake...i kind of want it. at least some! and i TOTALLY reciprocate, trust me.

i really think men are intimidated by strong women...and the men who aren't...well where the fuck are you? because you certainly are not in my life

UHHHHHGJHFGKJHDKJGNN~

so sad and frustrated.