punkagent

wow its been awhile since ive made a jounral entry, i dont even know where to start with this... i guess ill start with spring break which was relatively uneventful, i havent been drinking or taking pills aside from the occasion that ive slipped into a manic wave of depression which hasnt been a problem until recently... there have been some complication with the legal system that has turned my world upside down... and that was very difficult for me to deal with, i then used the booze and pills to help satiate the pain, which in the end only intensified it, sending me into a frenzy of chemically altered mood swings. thats the thing ive come to realize that these "crutches" of reality or chemicals i have always relied on to help me through unstable times, they never really solved my problems, they made them disappear for a fleeting moment, and then only made them worse.. however i still cling on too these chemicals as an escape from an otherwise bleak reality..this recent road block that the american justice system has thrown at me has totally made me rethink my situation with school, which is more than i feel like dealing with right now... i have been so lacking in the motivation department lately, that and the fact that i have been extremely sick has caused for a ton of things to pile up which i dont feel like dealing with.. well i guess the moral of this journal entry is... the combination of hollywood undead, xanax, and booze will not solve your problems.. also posted two new creepy pics, enjoy. well so long and thanks for all the shoes..


sincerely,
me