punkagent

well another sleepless night.. well near sleepless i fell asleep around 6am this morning. it always seems that i finally enter a comatose state right before dawn, what is it about the final moments before a new day begins that allows me to sleep. maybe its paralled to everyday life, i never readily accept new things, ill always cling on to until the final breaking point, maybe thats the reason ill try and cling on to the day before in slumber. on another note, i was in rehab in the beginning of january for 25 days for abuse of alcohol and rx drugs and stayed sober for another 25 after that. this weekend i fell off the wagon and indulged in jack daniels and xanax which led to a 48 hr black out. there was just an enormous pressure from everyone around me that i just finally broke down and used. im not sure what im gonna do from here, whether im j\going to try and quit again or try to do it in moderation, who knows... well so long and thanks for all the shoes.

sincerely,
me