well I guess a better blog today. I was kind of drunk last night. really shouldn't of went out last night. I was kind of broke. even though the guy I was with . was like Ill pay for it. didn't really do it like he should of. yeah went to a local strip joint. this guy brought like 2 grand with him. and handed me like 25 at first. and 15 later on. so I just some money out of the atm. that I really shouldn't be spending. did get a good buzz going on last night though. the place did change quite a bit. new management. so they were really cracking down on stuff. shit the girls couldn't really get too friendly like they were. but the one girl did call the guy that I was with this morning. and was wanting us to come up there right before closing to hang out. who know might go up there. if he desides to. just really feeling like shit today.
just really confused with life! God I hate some times. its like im a regular Guy. don't make much over 8 bucks a hour. 27 years old still fucking single. still a virgin. god im giving out to much info. never really been kissed. just don't know how to socialize. I basicly need to unfreeze my balls . and get out there. just broke as hell. gona get rid of some stuff this week though. dont need the full cable package. just go with the local chanels and drop my land line phone. and just go with my cell. and just keep the fucking net. thats bout all I do. don't watch too much tv. just a few shows during the week. and on the local chanals . but damn. got to get out of this depression. dosn't help matters when your mom is crazy. shes a good mom. but not all there. and my sister is just the fucking same. Im so glad I got out of there. couldn't stand her preaching at me all the time. then spreading rumers all the time. and dosn't even realise she is doing it. God im just tired of fucking life. im really a nice guy. but always make friends with all the girls that I meet. and they already are hooked. well enough of this emo shit. later all!
PS: one girl from last night keeps calling my bud! so we are deffently thinking bout going up there. shit may get to fuck a stripper! I guess the two of them live together. so who what may happen!
just really confused with life! God I hate some times. its like im a regular Guy. don't make much over 8 bucks a hour. 27 years old still fucking single. still a virgin. god im giving out to much info. never really been kissed. just don't know how to socialize. I basicly need to unfreeze my balls . and get out there. just broke as hell. gona get rid of some stuff this week though. dont need the full cable package. just go with the local chanels and drop my land line phone. and just go with my cell. and just keep the fucking net. thats bout all I do. don't watch too much tv. just a few shows during the week. and on the local chanals . but damn. got to get out of this depression. dosn't help matters when your mom is crazy. shes a good mom. but not all there. and my sister is just the fucking same. Im so glad I got out of there. couldn't stand her preaching at me all the time. then spreading rumers all the time. and dosn't even realise she is doing it. God im just tired of fucking life. im really a nice guy. but always make friends with all the girls that I meet. and they already are hooked. well enough of this emo shit. later all!
PS: one girl from last night keeps calling my bud! so we are deffently thinking bout going up there. shit may get to fuck a stripper! I guess the two of them live together. so who what may happen!