pulloffmywings

I've had so much on my mind lately. it's crazy.

My boyfriend had been acting strange for a couple weeks. I thought, maybe it's me. maybe I'm too clingy. maybe I need to stop coming over so much, or stop coming over *gasp* at all. that's right. I thought about breaking up with him. but thinking about it made my tummy hurt. because I really do love him. so finally I confronted him about it last night, and he told me. he's afraid I'm going to run away and leave him all alone. do some guys not realize that not all girls are bitches? if I love someone, I'm not going to run away. if they're good for me, then that's all that matters, and nothing, not even being unemployeed and not having friends, can get rid of me.

I've been so busy with him. trying to keep him happy, and myself happy. and being busy is good, but sometimes too good. sometimes it causes lack of conversations, sex, phone calls, etc.

I really should call some friends back home. I suck at keeping in touch.

Why am I not doing my best in job hunting? I need money, so why am I slacking? today counts 2 weeks of unemployment. today I had my roomate fax my resume to like 6 places. hopefully I get some call backs. I'm going to call all the places tommorrow. but why. that's the thing. why don't I call them now? I always have things that stop me.

I really wish I had air conditioning in my car. driving sucks without it, especially on 100 degree days like we've had lately.

*sigh*