Ahhhh... I said goodbye to Fargo today. It wasn't as saddening as it should have been, but it was sadder than it should have been. mixed emotions drive me bonkers.

So here I sit, in the comfort of the home I grew up in. I am staying here tonight and tommorrow night, saying goodbye to friends and family, finishing unfinished business, appreciating the unappreciated.

Thursday I drive to Butte. spend the night in a hotel, if I can find a cheap enough one. if not, spend the night in my car?

Friday I drive to Salt Lake City. Steph, the girl I will be living with, flies in at night. we will probably be too excited to sleep.

saturday we drive home. all the way. SLC to Mission Viejo, CA. how amazingly amazing.

apparently our apartment building overlooks this creek and forest or something. and it has 2 swimming pools. that rules.

I am going to be happy soon. I've realized that only adventure can keep me content. I had friends and cool jobs in Fargo. but everything was always the same. no adventure really. just drugs, work, sleep, get drunk, work, drugs, work, sleep. all the same. but now, I am going to get high and look at the mountains and run in the desert. I want to experience life for once.

hell yes.