current theme of fave SG's: amazing eyes
current mood: I have high vibration
current tunes: mr bungle, blood brothers, VHS or Beta
tonight was fun. I got off work early, watched "the Incredibles", then hung out with golfervboxer . ahhhh the OC. what a wonderful, wonderful show, and I love being THAT lame.
I am unsure about my trip home. I am hoping it will go smoothly, and I will be able to say my goodbyes to my friends properly. I have never really had to say goodbyes. when I moved here, I knew I'd be home often. but now.... when will I come back to North Dakota? not often. weddings, 10 year reunions... maybe. *sigh* maybe I shouldn't say any goodbyes. sometimes I wonder who is really my friend. what does the word "friend" actually mean. the only person who was ever there for me finally fucked his shit up. no one else was there through the pregnancy, the adoption, the mental institutions, the drug problems. no one else I could talk to or trust. now "friend" is like a formality. I get drunk with my friends. I get high with my friends. I watch a movie with a friend. but that's it.
what the fuck, why am I rambling on? it's because I am nervous, I don't know if I really want to go. *sigh*
I've had a good past few days. went to a show, got drunk, hung out with some fun fun people. hopefully my next few days will be the same.
there's this line from a Butch Walker song that's been runnin through my head... "like the toilet seat never got lifted, and I pissed on your confidence when you weren't around." I like it.
now I am going to peruse the boards and then go to beds, and possibly won't be back until wednesday night. so leave me fun entertaining comments.
love love love
Wingsie
current mood: I have high vibration
current tunes: mr bungle, blood brothers, VHS or Beta
tonight was fun. I got off work early, watched "the Incredibles", then hung out with golfervboxer . ahhhh the OC. what a wonderful, wonderful show, and I love being THAT lame.
I am unsure about my trip home. I am hoping it will go smoothly, and I will be able to say my goodbyes to my friends properly. I have never really had to say goodbyes. when I moved here, I knew I'd be home often. but now.... when will I come back to North Dakota? not often. weddings, 10 year reunions... maybe. *sigh* maybe I shouldn't say any goodbyes. sometimes I wonder who is really my friend. what does the word "friend" actually mean. the only person who was ever there for me finally fucked his shit up. no one else was there through the pregnancy, the adoption, the mental institutions, the drug problems. no one else I could talk to or trust. now "friend" is like a formality. I get drunk with my friends. I get high with my friends. I watch a movie with a friend. but that's it.
what the fuck, why am I rambling on? it's because I am nervous, I don't know if I really want to go. *sigh*
I've had a good past few days. went to a show, got drunk, hung out with some fun fun people. hopefully my next few days will be the same.
there's this line from a Butch Walker song that's been runnin through my head... "like the toilet seat never got lifted, and I pissed on your confidence when you weren't around." I like it.
now I am going to peruse the boards and then go to beds, and possibly won't be back until wednesday night. so leave me fun entertaining comments.
love love love
Wingsie
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liz_marie1222:
ahhaha I didn't have the ambition to answer those either...I just wonder if anyone does???? Hope your having a kickass time at home!!
liz_marie1222:
That's tight! you haven't been home for very long have you???