pulloffmywings

This is bound to be the longest and most intense journal entry ever.

FUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!

well, I suppose I could go on with that forever, but then no one would really get the meaning.

here's how my day went so far:

2 pm: went to the bank to get a loan for my trip (will discuss later). I most likely won't get the loan, because I get paid in cash and they can't check to make sure I'm telling the truth. ARGH.

2:45 pm: try calling my mother, then get linked to Cellular One automatically... MY PHONE WAS SUSPENDED WITHOUT ME KNOWING. I think Cell One representatives are trained to be cold and heartless. I am unsatisfied with the service, missing phone calls, losing jobs, and they still charge me up the ass.

3:15 pm: after crying on the phone and 3 cell one reps, I hung up after forking out a reconnection fee.

--Nervous breakdown: I seriouslly balled over it all - my financial woes, everything. I threw things and broke the remote to my shitty-not-working-for-no-real-reason cd player.--

3:30 pm: called my mother and told her about my trip, she got angry, but I seriously told her everything, and she was a bit sympathetic. still on my ass about money, wants me to move home. which I will never do.

4 pm: talked to my California bunny Steph and planned the trip:

I'm going to California and ARizona!!!

I leave on the 14th, ride the greyhound for 2 days, arrive in Cali, then go to ARizona for the weekend to hang out at a party house on the lake. Then I go back and hang in Cali for a couple days. I leave Wednesday and am home on Friday. I plan to take my novel rough drafts and my photographer and model portfolios. I also plan to check out job opps and strip clubs. I want so desperatly to leave this shithole known as north dakota. *sigh*

but I am very excited about my trip. anyone near Long Beach wanna hang out while I'm there? on the 19th or 20th? email me soon so we can make arrangements! not only will I be a lil cali bunny for a couple days, but I'm hopin to SG it up!

So I sent the boy one more letter. I told him everything. plus I said happy birthday since yesterday was, well, his birthday. and I told him if he wants his bday present (which involves victorias secret) to call me by sunday. and if he doesn't call I am movin on to bigger and better things. I've learned from your guys' support as well as my friends' that if he doesn't call he IS stupid. I'm a pretty good catch, or so I let my ego think

what's on my playlist?:

*hurt - NIN (which I have an awesome rendition made for my guitar playin skills)
*piggy - NIN
*natural life - breaking benjamin
*auf achse - franz ferdinand
*deadbolt - thrice
*bukowski - modest mouse
*viva las vegas - dead kennedy's
*bandages - hot hot heat
*fuck you - die trying

wow........ longness of the boring sort I see. I'm sorry, I'll never do it again!

much love,
Wings