wow.
last night was rough, but it was the best trip I ever had. I was a complete power junkie. I think it has to do with my newfound obsession with "A Clockwork Orange". I ran around with fake eyelashes on my right eye. I want to get blue contacts and a black hat. then I'll feel like Alex. that would be bliss, gorgeousness and gorgeousity made flesh. *Sigh*. I took pictures of me trippin hard, like a whole roll I think. I'll get em up here
so I got the job at Cheapo,and I start on monday. I got 24 hours next week. yay! IT'll rock. at the interview they told me they'd call me, but then the 2 people went and talked, and came back and said "you got the job". I guess they liked me, said I had a wide range of tastes in music, and that I was laid back. I guess they wanted someone who was a misfit too, someone who wouldn't get offended. well, that's me. I'm psyched.
so get this.... my roomate is up to no good again. I understand that yes, he was trippin way harder then me.... but we watched fear and loathing, and the part with the police officer.... brad looked at me and said "joanna, can I have a little kiss", just jokin, I hope.... but our friend was right next to me,and I want him,and it was just uncomfortable. thenI was sitting in the living room on my air matress, drawing lines with my fingers, and he came out with a weird look in his eyes, stood by me, and I swore he was gonna make a move.then he said "can I have a hug?". and I was like.... "you weirdo. go to bed." freakin psycho.
I miss having my own computer. I want one. I'm thinkin I'm gonna splurge on a laptop, with my new job and all. and I'll make it have a cd burner and a webcam. yup.
crap. the computer I'm at here at the library.... the space key is stuck, so you have to press it hard, and it's really loud. so typing really really sucks. like whoa.
well, there's my update. everyone have a good weekend and such,I'lll be back monday or tuesday. oh, and make sure to oogle the new sets for me!!!
now, here's lyrics, since I haven't had any for awhile. I just love the lyrics to this song. it's me.
Hatebreed "unloved"
When it all ended
There was no where left to turn
I hid inside myself hoping someone would find me
That day never came
As the years passed the pain lessened
I thought your voice was silenced forever
I was wrong
This time there's no turning back
Emerge from a doorway at the end of a war inside my soul
There's no picking up where we left off
And there will not be a future
I've died so many times inside
I've accepted this pain
And I can't look back now
I never will
You don't know
You don't care
You never have and you never will
[repeat]
You made me realize
Everything I've ever known of love was pain
And the person you once were
Has died and rotted away
I've lived with this knife in my heart
As a reminder of what I can't be
I know all I do is hate you
There is nothing you can say or do
You were never part of my life
And you never will be
Unloved
Much love,
Wings
last night was rough, but it was the best trip I ever had. I was a complete power junkie. I think it has to do with my newfound obsession with "A Clockwork Orange". I ran around with fake eyelashes on my right eye. I want to get blue contacts and a black hat. then I'll feel like Alex. that would be bliss, gorgeousness and gorgeousity made flesh. *Sigh*. I took pictures of me trippin hard, like a whole roll I think. I'll get em up here
so I got the job at Cheapo,and I start on monday. I got 24 hours next week. yay! IT'll rock. at the interview they told me they'd call me, but then the 2 people went and talked, and came back and said "you got the job". I guess they liked me, said I had a wide range of tastes in music, and that I was laid back. I guess they wanted someone who was a misfit too, someone who wouldn't get offended. well, that's me. I'm psyched.
so get this.... my roomate is up to no good again. I understand that yes, he was trippin way harder then me.... but we watched fear and loathing, and the part with the police officer.... brad looked at me and said "joanna, can I have a little kiss", just jokin, I hope.... but our friend was right next to me,and I want him,and it was just uncomfortable. thenI was sitting in the living room on my air matress, drawing lines with my fingers, and he came out with a weird look in his eyes, stood by me, and I swore he was gonna make a move.then he said "can I have a hug?". and I was like.... "you weirdo. go to bed." freakin psycho.
I miss having my own computer. I want one. I'm thinkin I'm gonna splurge on a laptop, with my new job and all. and I'll make it have a cd burner and a webcam. yup.
crap. the computer I'm at here at the library.... the space key is stuck, so you have to press it hard, and it's really loud. so typing really really sucks. like whoa.
well, there's my update. everyone have a good weekend and such,I'lll be back monday or tuesday. oh, and make sure to oogle the new sets for me!!!
now, here's lyrics, since I haven't had any for awhile. I just love the lyrics to this song. it's me.
Hatebreed "unloved"
When it all ended
There was no where left to turn
I hid inside myself hoping someone would find me
That day never came
As the years passed the pain lessened
I thought your voice was silenced forever
I was wrong
This time there's no turning back
Emerge from a doorway at the end of a war inside my soul
There's no picking up where we left off
And there will not be a future
I've died so many times inside
I've accepted this pain
And I can't look back now
I never will
You don't know
You don't care
You never have and you never will
[repeat]
You made me realize
Everything I've ever known of love was pain
And the person you once were
Has died and rotted away
I've lived with this knife in my heart
As a reminder of what I can't be
I know all I do is hate you
There is nothing you can say or do
You were never part of my life
And you never will be
Unloved
Much love,
Wings
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xoxo,
j