pulloffmywings

it's 2:30 am. i just woke up. here's how i slept today: 10:30 am to 6:30 pm, and 10 pm to 2 am. i'm such a freakin weirdo.

i had to go to the bank this morning when it opened, or i'd bounce a check. BUT i finally got me some groceries.

i'm eating honey bunches of oats, dry, out of the box, and sipping on a Hi-C juicebox.

i've been feeling really weird lately. i just want to be alone, but i don't want to FEEL alone. i've been way irritable, barely talking to anyone. when i go somewhere, and i start driving home, i dont want to go home..... i approach my turn, and don't take it, i just keep driving for an extra 10 minutes or so. i think i just need to cry. but if i try, my roomate will probably just bound out, trying to act like prince charming, and he'll get way to offended when i tell him to fuck off.

*sigh*

i feel as though

i am being attacked

by a force within my soul

disguised as hurt

rip off the mask

reckoning



the movie "Tombstone" still brings a tear to my eye when Doc is dying...


my song for the day: "great big white world" by MM

"And hell was so cold
All the vases are so broken
And the roses tear our hands all open
Mother marry miscarry
And we pray just like insects
The world is so ugly now..."