pulloffmywings

grrr.... so lets see.... i seem like a lazy ass, cuz i was in bed from 5:30 am til 6 pm..... but let me count the hours of sleep i was allowed..... *thinks*... i'd say about 4. what the fuck is wrong with people?! i have absolutly no respect shown to me in this house. and then my roomate asks me if i got any sleep, and i said no, and he apologized. he apoligizes every freakin morning, yet does nothing about it. GRRRR!!!!

man last nite i was so fucked up. i hadn't drank for so long, that 3 beers buzzed me up, then we smoked a few.... oh god. i couldn't really even function, it took me 10 minutes to get to my bed, which was about 15 feet away. WOW.

so i haven't worked since sunday.... i need to get at LEAST 4 calls within th next 3 days, or i'm fucked. will it happen? no.

i forgot how much i liked better than ezra.... i do though.

haven't had lyrics for awhile... "silhouettes" by smile empty soul

silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
they won't let me go the wrong way
my mother taught me all the fables, told me how
in the end all the sinners have to pay
but...

i don't wanna live like my mother
i don't wanna let fear rule my life
and i don't wanna live like my father
i don't wanna give up before i die

he worked so hard his bones are breaking
he wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
his good intentions leave me shaking, show me how
i don't ever want to end up like he did
and...

when i have kids
i won't put any chains on their wrists, i won't
i'll tell them this
there's nothing in this world that you can't be if you want it enough