puddleofbludd1

Geez. Do I know how to fuck up or what? I lose my girlfriend and sh is all I can think about somtimes. I just want to get over her. I know I still love her but I don't want to anymore. And I asked her to have lunch with me tomorrow but now I don't know if I can handle that. I feel like such an ass. She has all these friends and this group sh wants me to be apart of but if I did join it would be only for her and then I would never get over her. Why couldn't love have been all it was cracked up to be? Oh yeah, smoked pot for the first and second times this weekend it was good. I think my friend matt is going to get a bong for us to use next weekend. I can't believe he doesn't already have one. He has been smoking since he was in forth grade. Crazy.