puddleofbludd1

Seriously. It just is fine now. it's been a little while and I think i'm fucking over it finally. But now....there is another girl i've known her for a good 3 years and i am falling for her hella hard. just....i have so little self confidence when it come to girls. Not that i'm not worthy of any girl out there...it's just when it comes right down to it I just can't find the words to say anything to girls about dating. I want to ask her so bad to go on a date. But I just dunno if I should and I want her to say yes so bad that if she doesn't.... And this is how I always am about girls jus tthat this one is a friend. I would totally love to date her and take our friendship much further but if I ask her and she says no she seems like the type that things would just get wierd and I know I would try so hard to not let them and all this other shit. Damn. Just when I see the light, I can see that it wasn't that I couldn't find the light but that I was running from it. And I can't stop. It's like I dunno cause everynight I wish I had someone to call and just talk to and know that everything is alright. ANd I want to say stupid shit to her when we get ready to hang up and end up saying bye over and over again for like another 10-15 minutes before someone actually hangs up. I pine for this. Have you ever just sat somewhere and just yearned for stuff? Try it. It'll close doors you never knew were opened.