What the fuck is up with life. Whenever you think things are going ok something fucks up. I know it isn't just me. But it feels like it. What's worse is when someone fucks you over, through no fault of your own. God I THOUGHT I WAS OVER HER! I wish I was. I REALLY REALLY DO. I would almost pay to get over her. I know she hasn't done anything good for me in a year. But I just don't see myself doing better ever. I loved her SOOOO MUCH. She was my life. I need a job and a new girlfriend like life. And I need friends near my home. Cause now some of my friends in MD are getting tired of me(not having a job.) I need to go out and have fun. and get a girlfriend. and stop feeling so fucking lonely. This is so unlike me to be so depressed. I haven't felt happy in a year but before this i was happy for life. I haven't ever felt this way before it started a year ago. Someone come kick my ass for this. PLEASE. Damn it feels good to just bitch, whine though. Even thought I hate it.
lottie:
Sometimes something SOOO bad has to happen that you completely forget why you ever even liked someone in the first place. At first it seems awful. But then, you are sooo relieved to hate that person, cuz you never have to feel for them again. Can you hate her?