therapy went well. i go back on monday. actually spent some time here at the house today. tossed out half of my makeup collection, it went from being three boxes to just one. i also went through some of the sentimental shit i had been holding on to and trashed most of it. old letters from joe when he was in basic training and shit...
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it's a sure sign that the end is near. i have appointments with a new shrink and a new therapist tomorrow. what is going through my head? a permanent headache, lack of sleep, a sense of impending doom, and a fuck-ton of stress. mmm...stress. while at one point stress and i had a brief but torrid love affair, the honeymoon is now over and i...
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it's all fucking kinds of complicated. i feel like i have until the first of december to undo all the shit i've spend such generous amounts of time fucking up. nice. the way i've been living lately is making me physically sick. i have a headache just about every second of every day, i might be running a fever but don't have the desire to...
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not for you!

perspective and boundaries...where the hell have i heard this shit before?

this is the longest i have been home in three days. next week will be different, working six days again. haven't been on the computer for more than fifteen minutes in over a week. my cpu fan is busted so it overheats and locks up. suck. it locked up during some good girl squirt porn the other day. made me sad. i have the cover...
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keep on keeping on

oh, to be young and retarded. which i am. very. so here is the score kiddies, i am in love. that's right. i, the emotionally stunted bitch that i am, is in mad love. to be honest it scares the fucking shit out of me. the boy is unbelievably wonderful and i fear that he is honestly too good for me. he treats me right,...
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pizza, movies, and possibly booze and sex. this is the life folks.

the things i have to do to calm myself down are not the things i should do.