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so my attempts to befriend someone a work are being met with resistance (what can i say, i like the shy and slightly socially inept type). apparently some people like to wallow in their misery and lonliness, go figure. at any rate the asshole will now be suffering the wrath of my silence, which i'm sure he won't even notice. asshole. so i have moved...
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we meet again ladies and gents. i've got self done highlights processing in my hair right now which means i am sitting in front of my computer wearing a black bra, jeans and socks, sipping a rum and coke, waiting for a boxed cheesecake to set up in the fridge and feeling/ looking much like a public service announcement targeted toward the lonely hearts club....
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good morning. at least i'm awake during the daylight hours today. yesterday i didn't get up until 5:30 pm, long story. let's see, work sucks but i don't have to go back until tuesday. thank god. i fucking hate that place, and am looking for a new job. i swear to god my bosses will ask me for a kidney next, i already take all...
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i don't know why i do it, i just do. i guess i ask for too much, i'm sorry. as usual.

it looks like everyone has updated their blog for the new year except me, but i got no time now. more later.

twenty-one years old and on the verge of greatness, but aren't we all. i have thoughts like that and then immediately downplay them like they are nothing. got my hair cut so i could have a faux hawk. it looks cute when i spike it up and a little retarded when i don't. what can you do. i have friends now, isn't that just the...
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christmas was okay i guess. i doesn't really feel like christmas here, all the crackling fireplace and snow imagery is pretty much lost on southern california. the cats look super handsome in their matching collars that say thing 1 and thing 2 and their name and my phone number. they are so rotten. i found out that to cats a three dollar drugstore eye shadow...
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i'm am pretty sure i will be going to work tomorrow short of vomiting or just dropping dead. i ate chicken soup for the first two meals of the day and had 6/8 of a pizza and half a large vanilla milkshake for the third. i think that i can keep down most real foods but i probably won't test that by filling my gullet...
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i had to leave work an hour early yesterday because i am sick as shit. i made it to the first stop light before i started heaving my guts out, unfortunately the bag i was puking into had a hole in it. needless to say that i got spew on my pants, shirt, hoodie, and emergency brake. good times. i got home only to have...
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today wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be. actually, it was unnervingly standard. i smiled a lot more today than i have in about a week, so i suppose that is a good sign. i'm such a loser, i watched mean girls while eating leftover pizza. yeah, it's pretty lame. em has plans tonight and joe is still at work so...
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