pudding

ok, so i am trying hard not to just dropkick this damn job i have now, but i'm going to go in tomorrow and see what the schedule looks like for the next week and go from there. i hve no willpower and it has taken much shoving from Huckabee not to just quit., he's so muh more in control of things than i am. i feel so damn lost, i have plenty of good skills and no one is hiring me. i can drive a fukcing forklift goddamnit!!! i'm just so bored with my life right now. i sleep a lot, and all i want to be is evertything and perfect all the time, and have a cool easy job, is that wrong? thats what i want, not what i've got. instead i've got soul.