pudding

must stop staying awake until 6 am, simply a bad move considering i have to go back to work on monday. i have considered just not going back, but i am supposed to have a trainee, or as i will call him or her, a minion to do my bidding. always wanted one of those. everything sucks right now, and i am repressing some of my more self-destructive tendencies, we shall see how long that lasts. i'm sure when i add the stress of work back into the mix i will implode. i have tried to be productive, but just end up rolling around on the floor in my underwear. oh lord, self-loathing is a beautiful thing sometimes. i'll get over it. i think, maybe. or maybe i will just morph into a goth chick.