pudding

So, on one hand i have the new boy who is nice and fun and exciting, and on the other hand i have the old boy who is loyal, and loving, but has a history of making me unhappy. the new boy says i make him happy, and the old boy is now proposing marriage and a life together. i am so damn confused, i dunno what the hell to do, the whole thing makes me want to scream. my new meds are a total mind fuck, i have never felt so unusual. i just want to bury my head in the sand for like 15 minutes.