got drunk last night, got sick, dragged ass through work tonight, i feel dumb. i think the downward spiral starts here. latley i have been repressing strong urges to take up life as a gypsy, i get this way some times. it's like an overactive fight or flight reflex. sometimes i just lay on the floor and sing to the songs on the radio at the top of my lungs. i am losing it..........slowly......... 