pudding

i am one lonely motherfucker tonight. all i really want is someone to hang out on the couch with and cuddle. work was brutal this morning, when i sat down for lunch i fell asleep and later i was sitting around in the office waiting for kathy to finish some signs and started to blink sleep. grrr. this schedule blows. needless to say that when i got home this morning i passed the fuck out and stayed that way until much later in the afternoon. my new ear piercings make sleeping on the sides of my head a little interesting and i tend to snag my shirts on them in the putting on/taking off process. my tongue is still a bit swollen but not enough that it causes me to lisp like i was a couple days ago. the internet was down in my area for a little while earlier today so i went back to bed and by the time i got up it was back. i is lost without the internets. still haven't talked to my mom yet. i'm not in the mood for the lecture i'm sure to get when we talk next. that conversation could get heavy. i expect to hear the phrase, "what the hell do you think you are doing," at least once. she knows i'm not on my meds and she blames everything on it. everything. but i'm not depressed so in my mind that makes it all worth it. just lonely. ugh, i don't suppose anyone out there just wants to chill on the couch and cuddle? no? thats what i thought. one of my co-workers told me that i should stop looking for a guy and just wait for one to find me because that's how it was done in the biblical days. priceless.


found this excellent cover of one of my favorite songs