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it's been a boring day and it's not over yet. did laundry but forgot to put my work uniform in the basket so the things that needed washing the most didn't get washed. i should have gone to the pharmacy and filled the prescriptions my shrink wrote me yesterday. he said he doesn't think i'm taking this whole bipolar this seriously. and of course i responded by smiling and trying hard not to laugh. smart. the whole 15 minute session consisted of him eyeing me disapprovingly and me trying not to smirk. it was either laugh or cry and i wasn't wearing my crying makeup. called the vet this morning because sylvester had to spend the night at the vets office last night. i gave them the okay to do the x-rays and they found that his abdomen is full of fluid. they are going to draw some of the fluid out and test it, because they don't know what the fuck it is, and i can call back and get those results tomorrow. kiko is freaking the fuck out because sylvester isn't here, he whines constantly. joe called to check in, i said everything was okay. i'm a damn dirty liar sometimes. i just don't want him to worry about it, he's having a good time and i don't want to fuck it up. i'm not depressed like normal, just weird and anxious. more stressed out than anything. money issues kill.