pudding

tomorrow is my last day of school! i take my state board licensing exam on the 15th of november. i will have over a month to ensure that i know every single nail disease and disorder on the planet. that is the subject that has been tripping me up the most, that and anatomy and physiology. one would think that having a body of your own would mean you actually know a little about it, but in my case that is completely false. i've been taking practice tests and doing really well. i even score between 80-90% on the subjects that i'm shaky on but i would like to do better because failing is 75% or something like that. the whole testing thing makes me nervous. at any rate tomorrow is my last day which means i get to wear whatever i want and also get to have other students give me manicures and stuff all day. all the girls have been so sweet offering to do my hair and whatnot.

i'm shrinking again. the meds that i'm on have really put a damper on my appetite and i have been trying to cut down on what i call "depression, boredom, and comfort eating." my weight fluctuates all the time though so don't be surprised if i bitch about gaining it all back here in a few weeks. my biggest complaint about gaining and losing weight is that i'm only five feet tall so if i gain ten pounds i change two pants sizes (it all goes to the hips anyway), grrr.

things are actually going pretty well between joe and i lately, we are going to a marriage counselor next monday. hopefully this will help us straighten out some of the more rocky spots that occur in our relationship. we went to see a movie last night, the first time we have been out in a while. he saw jackass and i saw the texas chainsaw massacre: the beginning. he doesn't like scary movies and i wasn't really in a comedy mood.
so it looks like i will have to try and get a job in the next month or so and because of that

i am growing out the sides of my mohawk. i'm letting the hair grow just until it is long enough to lay down on the sides, it will be more of a faux-hawk when it's all said and done. the thinking behind the whole thing is that having hair softens my look a little making me more approachable to customers. besides, my shrink has me examining my motives for choosing this look. that is not to say that i'm going to take out all my piercings and get my tattoos removed or anything, the opposite is actually true, i plan on getting more eventually. but i liked having a little hair, and i think i shaved the sides to try and get out of my depressive funk instead of just for the love of the mowhawk look. good god i'm a weird animal.