pudding

so i'm sitting here drinking and sweating my ass off. so sick of school, seriously, the whole situation can kiss my ass. had a wonderful self realization today, i don't see myself as being as womanly as my peers. that is not to say that i am not a woman in the strictly physical sense, but rather that i see myself as more of a girl in the sense that i feel womanhood demands a certain kind of maturity and self-awareness/confidence that i do not possess. that's weird. but yeah, just thought i'd share that.