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if i was really motivated i would get off my ass and get the tasty bagel and coffee i want. i am currently using all of my motivation to try and find a nail tech program within my current price range. i figure that if i do the nail tech program instead of the cosmetology program ( the nail program is 400 hours, the cosmetology program is 1600 hours if i remember right ) not only will it cost less but then i will be able to work as a nail tech while we save up for cosmetology school . and that means not working in a job i hate, which is awesome. mmm...i love trying to weasel my way out of getting another pointless job. it just doesn't make much sense to me to continually work in jobs that pay well but leave you hating yourself and your work at the end of the day. i get that every job has its points that genuinely suck ass, however, i would like to keep the ass sucking to as much of a minimum as possible. i'm just tired of the same old bullshit. see, now you can never say i don't ever try and find the bright spot in all of this. told my mother about my genius idea and she was happy that i am no longer crying and babbling incoherently about not getting to live the dream. mikey has become my almost constant companion, he even sleeps in the bed with me and everything. he doesn't sleep with me when joe is home because joe takes up too much room. i am so excited about finding a way around having to work at a shitty job! hopefully tomorrows calls will prove fruitful. i'm still tired. i can't get sylvester to come out from under the bed.