pudding

watched the boondock saints this evening with ethan and aaron, it kicked ass. i have been hearing that the movie was great for forever and had never seen it. work was wonderfully boring. i made money, but i would have rather have been at home on the couch. i am not meant to be a waitress. i'm just not. i really do hate my job some days. at least i'm off tomorrow, that makes me happy. i got a letter from joe today. once again can't wait for him to come home. i am so listless. all i want to do is sleep. i don't know, i'm a mess most days. and the songs that play on the radio seem like a sign from god sometimes. the timing is just crazy kinds of perfect. i just feel like i don't give a shit about anything anymore. i feel like i am just wasting time doing nothing. and i am being a whiny emo bitch again. what's new. the sarcasm is palpable. i'm going to bed. maybe tomorrow will be different.