pudding

well it appears i am deathly allergic to something. i have these wonderful welts and they itch like hell. it's disgusting really. i got contacts today, so now i look less militant. i have felt sick as hell all damn day, nothing seems to help. i can't sleep worth shit either. it's lovely. i don't know what's wrong with me. i should be happy. joe called today. he had all kinds of good news. he enrolled us in a program that would ensure that wherever we get stationed that place will have adequate mental health facilities and programs that i can be a part of. he also says he is choosing a career that has minimal at sea time, so he will be able to be with me as much as possible. i am so grateful that he is so understanding of the emotional difficulty i have.