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so much time, so much sleep, so pissed as usual. dissapointment kills, me and small animals i think. save me from myself, someone, anyone. it takes a lot for me to peel myself of the couch, or floor, or misc. surface. i hate my job , though the people there make it worth it most days. got a headache from hell and i feel emotionally unstable. i can't be trusted with myself, or anything or anyone. i am a walking bio hazard, beware the toxic midget. i have only eaten green beans today, haven't had the stomache for anything else. destroyed, seroiusly coming apart at the seems now. hell hath no fury... the whole thing is a mess, i know that , but when have i ever walked away from a mess, i don't i roll in it and if it doesn't kill me then i am all the better for it.