dirty little secret. have to fill out paperwork prior to my first therapy session, all they need is to know what makes me a neurotic mess, thats pretty easy. but seriously this thing has a million questions. i was pissed this morning and then around 11 i couldn't control my laughter and just laid my head down on the counter til i could shut up. Ben Kweller-Wasted and Ready. love it, listen to it, live it. i keep wanting to do things to keep my mind busy and off certain things (cause they only get me in trouble) but everytime i try i get distracted by something shiny and wander off. i'm having one of those times, and i think every girl and hell even boy has one or a few, where you wish life was a little more glamorous. you wish you had fabulously outrageous and funny things to say or that your job wasn't so mundane, and that everyone wold look at you and think to themselves: i want to be like that girl/guy/whatever. its a little vain, but everyone is entitled to a little vanity, there is so much in this world that can drag you down that having a vain moment isn't going to kill anything. i am at war with my mother...kind of. she pissed me off the other day and now she isn't to thrilled with me either. its a mutual distaste at this point. i just want to feel full, you know? like my shot glass isn't half empty? only used the shot glass as the example because i have been forbidden to drink by all my mental health care-takers. bunch of losers.... apparently recklessness is not a desirable trait, couldn't see why.......my hair is sticking straight up and i look like a fucking crazed bird.
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we are all entitled to feel like the center of attention at some point, ya know? Mothers are an interesting breed, Its a constant struggle not to fight with my mom. I just have to take a deep breath, step back, and try to be as understanding to her position as i can. You only got one mother, dont waste time by being angry... its the holidays ::hugs:: 
