pudding

so christmas is over ...thank god. new years is the next big thing but it sounds like we have tiny evening at home planned. hopefully 2006 will be better than 2005. i am awake because for some reason i can't sleep though i am infinatly tired. we got a really sweet digital camera/camcorder from my grandparents. still don't know how to operate it, but it is only day one. i probably should be making some new years resolutions and when i do i will post them for all to see so that when i fail you can share in that. knowing that others fail too makes you feel more human i think. i feel so lifeless right now but i can sense there are big changes coming. kind of like the way you can smell when it is about to rain...its like that