another lonely night spent climbing the walls...so sad. i got a new tattoo yesterday, the words save me with tiny stars and stuff, it's very cute. i will have to put pics on here some time. i feel so exhausted, and it's day two of my vacation. tonight was pedicure night since there was no one with testosterone within 10 miles. went to the mall...
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you know that scene in just about every action movie where the car plunges into the lake, river, ocean, or other body of water and how in the middle of the hero trying to remove his or herself from the drowning vehicle there is that moment of silence when they realize that they might not get out and the music softens and the light shines...
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i am the doormat, tread accordingly.
it apears that my darling Saejin has either misplaced his phone or has tired of me, i am not sure what to think. work is hell, i hate it, all the people i work with are bitches and tonight i was seconds away from quiting for the millionth time. things just kind of suck right now, i feel pathetic.
Lonely...endlessly lonely. "Rose tints my world keeps me safe from my trouble and pain"
oh my good sweet lord, i hate my damn job with a firey passion. other people that work there claim to hate it, but none of them hate it as much as i do. i cut my hand on a lead plate (battery factory), maybe i should wash that.......
i proclaim today "i love the cure day".
i am hoping to get my big tattoo...
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i proclaim today "i love the cure day".
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saejin:
Ahh, but then the guilt trip would have ensued and I'm very contagious now. Although I don't think you can spread poison Ivy through contact, you have to actually contract it from the leaves. Still, that doesn't mean you wouldn't catch some other kind of strange disease lurking on the folds of my skin. So I'll apologize now if you break out in rashes tomorrow 
i have a silver x on the back of each hand, and a dark circle under each eye, i am a nervous wreck. 
the lack of sleep is kicking my ass, i feel sluggish all the damn time, but part of it may be the drugs. got a super-fat check from work, yeah...back-pay kicks ass. time for more tattoos!!! 
maybe a small corset piercing on my arm or something, dunno. So, on one hand i have the new boy who is nice and fun and exciting, and on the other hand i have the old boy who is loyal, and loving, but has a history of making me unhappy. the new boy says i make him happy, and the old boy is now proposing marriage and a life together. i am so damn confused, i...
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Hot damn, yesterday was one of the craziest days i have had in forever!!! i went to the 16th birthday party of on of my buddies nieces and ended up hanging out with the band that was playing there. the lead singer is so damn cute and we hung out at his place until early this morning. the not-boyfriend hates me, but i think he...
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Sometimes you just have to grit your teeth and eat dirt for a second, and yesterday that is exactly what i did...today will probably be more of the same. i am on new drugs to treat my bipolar ii disorder, makes me feel like a lab rat but i guess if it gets the job done i can't bitch too much. it also helps immensly...
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Just another lousy day in the land of Oz ....