that was fun, i enrolled in tri-care this morning. let me paint the picture for you. i am beautifully hung-over, disheveled hair, greasy face, chapped lips, slept in clothes, the whole bit. on top of that ethan's cats slept on my hoodie. and i am missing a chunk of my eyebrow, it got smudged off in my sleep. i was such a rock star this...
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i've been laughing so hard my face hurts. tonight is one of the best nights i've had since joe left. i see my shrink tomorrow, oh the joy that will be. tonight i have none of myself to give because i am going to be a selfish little brat and milk this feeling as long as it lasts. it's nice when people don't judge you...
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shake for me. i want to be so much better than ok. ok is sub-par. ok is not good enough. as it stands i am ok. that doesn't mean i'm good or great or even fine, i'm just ok. ok, basically means you have no reason to throw yourself off the nearest cliff. i would love to be better than not wanting to plunge to...
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deadman69:
is everything ok... 
nice new profile pic 
if you wanna talk im on aim...hit me up...
nice new profile pic if you wanna talk im on aim...hit me up...
jackinblack:
happiness ????????
is this when you finally find yourself and your role in life
to get there requires questioning yourself and facing up to your answers and suffering through situations and seeing how you cope and than knowing what you feel
its a long and cathargic experience
some people never bother or cant deal with it
to ever find out
the older you get the more intense this gets until you either crack it open or just suppress it all
but really
noone knows what they really want at 21 not to sound condescending i mean i sure as fuck didnt
i know more now
but everything also keeps changing and so i have to keep questioning
trying to take myself deeper into the heart of darkness
and i have a happiness in knowing myself enough to believe in who iam
life is a crazy rollercoaster drowning under murky water one minute and rocketting up amongst amazing hedonistic clouds the next
but what else is there
its life
and there aint much of another substitute
is this when you finally find yourself and your role in life
to get there requires questioning yourself and facing up to your answers and suffering through situations and seeing how you cope and than knowing what you feel
its a long and cathargic experience
some people never bother or cant deal with it
to ever find out
the older you get the more intense this gets until you either crack it open or just suppress it all
but really
noone knows what they really want at 21 not to sound condescending i mean i sure as fuck didnt
i know more now
but everything also keeps changing and so i have to keep questioning
trying to take myself deeper into the heart of darkness
and i have a happiness in knowing myself enough to believe in who iam
life is a crazy rollercoaster drowning under murky water one minute and rocketting up amongst amazing hedonistic clouds the next
but what else is there
its life
and there aint much of another substitute
so i just got off work, went to the bar next door. downed three shots of southern comfort and came home. my belly burns, it's great. i invited andy to come with me, but he drank the night before and probably would have gotten in trouble with his wife for drinking two nights in a row. he is a fairly belligerent drunk, so he has...
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jackinblack:
its nice to read you
i love drinking too much too
and i worry about becoming an alcoholic as well
but noone has said anything so until that date i assume im not
maybe i just wanna be shocked
i love drinking too much too
and i worry about becoming an alcoholic as well
but noone has said anything so until that date i assume im not
maybe i just wanna be shocked
so tony is working on drawing up my leg piece, and should be giving me a call about it early next week. which will be excellent. i am looking forward to this piece, it is a tribute to my family. i'm sure it will be beautiful. i got my base i.d. and stickers for my car. on monday i go to fill out all the...
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braddropout:
Shit, got so caught up in my birthday, didn't realise yours was less than a week later. Happy birthday! Hope you had a good one. Sorry. I'm a bad friend. You can have some if my viagra if you want 
deadman69:
Mt Dew is the 
of my life
of my life i don't like being hung-over. it sucks ass. i have felt like shit all day long. and to think that this morning i was dead set on going out and doing it all over again. i got a new tattoo, on my right leg. it's awesome. i can tell you are jealous. i have no common sense. hopefully i will be getting contacts on wednesday,...
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deadman69:
base id whats that?
deadman69:
oh man do i feel stoopid....
so yesterday was my twenty first birthday. i got really drunk. i am hung-over in the worst way. i've slept for five hours. my aunt called me while i was at the bar last night, and so did my grandfather. priceless. apparently ethan can't take me anywhere. i am an easily influenced drunk. i now know that ethan is the devil, and aaron and joey...
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jackinblack:
i like you
you have a nice sense of drunk soaked wit
i laughed
and shit its 20 past 3 in the morning and im tired at last
cool
you have a nice sense of drunk soaked wit
i laughed
and shit its 20 past 3 in the morning and im tired at last
cool
deadman69:
your welcome...my 21st bday sucked...
so i just got back from having my new sideburn piercings checked. they are mighty inflamed, there is nothing wrong with the piercing itself. but i may hove chemically burned them when i dyed my hair. so for the next two days i am on a strict ibuprofen regimen, and if that doesn't work i get to see the family doctor on friday. sucktastic. none...
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nickzut:
happy b day
sexy pics
nice ink
sexy pics
nice ink
voodooapple30:
what are sideburn piercings?
i have decided that like joey, i hate the guys from monetti's. they came in at fifteen minutes to close, while i was vacuuming, bitches. and they stayed until two twenty five. they did however leave a five dollar tip, but even that was not adequate compensation for having to stay late. plus the one guy's accent was bad enough to drive me up a...
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long night, great movie, more later.
i am going nowhere. you here me out there? nowhere. decipher that one bitches! and i thought i would come out of this as like a better version of myself. like a fucking super-cassie or something. i would be impervious to the little slights and pitfalls of daily life, or at least not let the crush me so bad. but hey, let us now face...
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its early but i am calling the day as being finished. i have no plans. i am bored. here is the crappy emo-poem i wrote earlier. you can kick me in the shins for it later.
the cuts itch
and there will be scars
deflated
with a raver kid twist
music, oh, sweet music
will it be enough to save my soul?
fast food junkie...
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the cuts itch
and there will be scars
deflated
with a raver kid twist
music, oh, sweet music
will it be enough to save my soul?
fast food junkie...
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