puddincat

Hello friends.

It is October 1st.

I feel so sick inside with guilt and pain and my eyes are swollen, my kness are weak, my teeth are chattering, I'm cold,wet (from tears) shattered, broken down, feeling so shitty I could Yes.... Today is the day I have realized I am a shitty horrid human being.

......BUT on the bright side I do plan to repair the damage and make everything be the best that I can.
God I fucking wanna make it better.... just gimmie a chance.

I look at today as a day of renewal. yes.
I am gonna try to make it be that.

think happy thoughts 4 me k??

I may go grey soon... but I'll be back when I get the money in order.


god I am so blind to shit- I'm an asshole.

Happy saturday- enjoy it peoples!!





A Dream Come True

Feelings that once were hidden
Are now expressed to you.
Days that once were stormy
Are now the brightest blue.

Times that once were lonely
Are now filled with pleasure.
All that once was mine alone
Are now things we both treasure.

Nights that once were cold
Are now comforting and warm.
Fears that once were very real
Are now gone with the storm.

A heart that once was broken
Can now finally mend.
A person once alone in life
Can now call you a friend.

Dreams that once were longed for
Are now all coming true.
The love I once thought was gone
I have now and forever in you.

- Dawn Ballard -