I am done. I surrender. I have to live with how I feel and thats it. I am so angry with the idea of love and everything it brings and does to people. This afternoon it had me on the floor of the shower crying so hard my chest hurt. I could feel my insides in a knot and feeling gross. My eyes got to the point where I thoughty they'd be swollen shut if I didn't stop then and there. It was at that point I noticed my nice hot steamy shower had turned Ice cold. "Heh, just like my heart" (hopefully)
I don't ever want to feel like this ever again. so here's my plan:
I'm gonna just cope with what I have to... Feel how I feel and stop feeling guilty and wrong for it. I know I will never feel this way again .....
How did I get here?????? 8 months ago- I would've never thought. Now I feel like the clock ticks away, leads to a life I don't want and I loose the one I love. ::sigh:: I lost you already....
Man, fuck this shit.
I don't ever want to feel like this ever again. so here's my plan:
I'm gonna just cope with what I have to... Feel how I feel and stop feeling guilty and wrong for it. I know I will never feel this way again .....
How did I get here?????? 8 months ago- I would've never thought. Now I feel like the clock ticks away, leads to a life I don't want and I loose the one I love. ::sigh:: I lost you already....
Man, fuck this shit.
This little puudingcat feelin tired too.
But whaddup? Its...
Another superheroine
Later