puddincat

I'm up.
It's like 4 am ans I am drunk and pondering why I feel so damn horny and so damn in need of closeness on some other levwl than the whole level you would think.
I had to edit cuz my dumb ass accidently submitted before I was done bitchinb.
I like kust don't get it man.... I am so in need of just that kind of feeking.. haha feeling. I am so ....sad things are the way they are. Did I make em this way?> is it my fault.?
I wonder If he even knows what is going on in my littel head.
Maybe I'm being immature aboutr it all. Maybe It's not me/. Why do I always make things about me. I mean usre maybe I do suck.... But maybe its like toher things too/
I
think there are other reasons or something - I'm actually not clear on that at the moment. I tried to call
soeffinhappy got his momma and felt lame.
I think my voice was all whipsery. hahahahahaha....
I watched Queen of the Dammed and some really good movie called Off The Map. hahahahaha....
this drunken rant is goimng no wheres.

I just wish I had the guts to tell you everything.................
I am so lame ass. boo me. booooooo......
I realize my AIM has been on all night and I wasn'r here./
I had an awesome IM.. That went something like....
It's Electric! boogie woogie woogie!! LMAO!!!!
sorry I misse ya.
I'm pathetiv man.

give up.