puddincat

Today has been an awesome day. Very scary at some times.. just cuz I was nervous and all at some parts. But It was Awesome and So missed. I'm still a little nervous though... I kinda like the feeling. It's funny.
I feel good i sat down and wrote my feelings down and got them off my chest. That was hard. It's so damn hard to put everything out there, but it's worth it so I tried. I tried to get it all out and I think I did an ok job. It's like I cleared the conscience of my heart.(lame I know) but true. I only wish I didn't feel ashamed for it. like, I almost feel bad about it in a way- but It really is too beautiful to feel bad about. All confusing. Anyway, I did it and I feel a little good about it.
I've never put myself out there- and well... I've never had these thigns on my mind. Its insanity. It's the most scary thing to experience (for me anyways).
In some ways I wanna get out there and do stuff and hang out with people, but then sometimes I wanna hermit up. Is that a normal way to feel??
Anyways.. Happy Tuesday