pubert

All these things are like the check engine light. YOu know its on, you know somethings up. But the furtherest to your knowledge the engines still there...I need another hint.

There is no maice in my heart or in my voice when it comes to discussing these matters. I don't care if she has a bf, i just care weather or not he treats her like i would. And that he plays with and or acknowledges eves presance and plays with her.

Am i making things worse? I know i'm confusing the hell outta her and possibly braking heart with each feeble attempt at telling her voice mail how I feel. I mean i hear her voice mirrored in some machine telling me (sorry kid shes got better things to do) and i lose all composure. I think (and i could be wrong) if it was a heart to heart i might be able to keep it together long enough to express my honest sentiments. When you lose the best thing that ever happend to you what do you? Keep on keeping on? If i had my selfish way it'd honestly make things easier on everyone, but than i'd make those beautiful brown eyes well up with tears....

Sense she does mean so much to me, i must keep that promise to her. As much as it hurts me todo so, and as much as i know i got keep that promise with out her support her by my side!