pubert

Hehh i'm so confuzled about things. I miss her, god do i ever miss her. Its good to be missed, but its hard to tell how missed you are when she won't pick up the phone when you call. I mean i'm pretty much fucked if they find out i called her, which i'm sure they already know. IF asked about it i'll lie and say I inishiated all contact to no avail, and leave her looking inocent. I love this girl with all my heart and want her to be happy. I thought she had a new bf, who judging by the pictures she looked happy with, and as much as it felt like someone just pulled a dagger out of the freezer and ran me through, I knew i desirved it.

I'd do anything to have her back in my life. I don't care if that means as just a friend, an aquaintance, or a card board cut out i keep in my room as a reminder of the best thing i ever had....Her daughter still needs a dad, and my ex gf still needs someone to save her...

Weather or not she wants that person to be me i can't assume to know anything. As for her having a bf but missing me at the same time, that confuses the hell outta me. I thought after i was gone she'd have taken a good riddance attitude twords me. But if she does want me to part of her and her daughters life she knows what she has todo. First contact me, get in touch with my attorneys. Second pick up a sword and fight damnit! There flanking me from every angle here. Stand up and tell these bastards what you know in your heart is true. I'd never lay a harmful finger on your daughter, and i'd make a hell of a father. Hell i learned from the best, minus the burises on my own ass, which reguardless doesn't change the fact he was always there for me. Sober, wise, kind caring, not so patient (but i got that in spades when it comes to this girl.)

God damn i miss you...and sense your the only sg buddy i got left these days i figured its safe to say your confusing the hell outta me, but i like hearing from ya. And i liked it better when you were breathing!