No ciggarettes and no drugs make chris a dull boy. Its offical ever so loving girlfriend has made it clear to me. NO more drugs. No purchasing smelling smoking touching of the ganga. NO drugs period. No vitiamins E or A. I can still drink but i hate drinking. I hate liquor, i like beer in moderation. Unfortinatly i don't see a point to being drunk unless i'm stoned. And besides alcohal is an anti drug for the weak. "No man drugs are for losers.....oh time for 6 martini lunch" So this happens and than i discover that its more fun to throw money away on her than on delicious nutrisous ciggarettes. Although i'm not buying them i'm bumming them...which isn't exactly sticking to the quiting vow. But the way i always envisioned it is the second i have a child i'm kicking the habbit. Although i haven't gone through the excursiating joys of childbirth myslef, my gfs baby is as close it needs to be.
This is huge for me. This is bigger than shaving my chest. For me its always been a "don't change me baby" type of attitude twords dating. I've said i love you to my share of girls who've warnted it and some who haven't. Even the one that got away couldn't convince me kick the habbit. But for her...i'd do anything. Including cleaning my up act, quiting my night job as a hustler, and evening braking cancer sticks over the trash. However human will power only goes so far so as you can guess i fished out those lil half stubbys hours later fiending. Hehh.
The way i see it if this doesn't last, i'm high tailing it to virgina and giving up on life. Where i shall be reaquainted with an old friend known as the infamous brad williams. and habbitual Hunter/burroughs style drug abuse. But i'm givning this relationship everything I got. Every fiber of my realitiy tells me don't let this one go till she says so. So in review drugs are bad, reality isn't boring when shes around, and ciggarettes are just a waste of $. Besides its much more rewarding to buy toys for a toddler and watch her face light up that it is to kill yourself in 5minute intervals. "this is your life and its ending one minute at a time"- tyler Durden. Sense that statement is both fact and observation why waste it trying to speed up the processess when you can spend it two of the most beautiful god (or whomever i'm not quite sure) had the foresight to create?
This is huge for me. This is bigger than shaving my chest. For me its always been a "don't change me baby" type of attitude twords dating. I've said i love you to my share of girls who've warnted it and some who haven't. Even the one that got away couldn't convince me kick the habbit. But for her...i'd do anything. Including cleaning my up act, quiting my night job as a hustler, and evening braking cancer sticks over the trash. However human will power only goes so far so as you can guess i fished out those lil half stubbys hours later fiending. Hehh.
The way i see it if this doesn't last, i'm high tailing it to virgina and giving up on life. Where i shall be reaquainted with an old friend known as the infamous brad williams. and habbitual Hunter/burroughs style drug abuse. But i'm givning this relationship everything I got. Every fiber of my realitiy tells me don't let this one go till she says so. So in review drugs are bad, reality isn't boring when shes around, and ciggarettes are just a waste of $. Besides its much more rewarding to buy toys for a toddler and watch her face light up that it is to kill yourself in 5minute intervals. "this is your life and its ending one minute at a time"- tyler Durden. Sense that statement is both fact and observation why waste it trying to speed up the processess when you can spend it two of the most beautiful god (or whomever i'm not quite sure) had the foresight to create?
and no, i don't smoke.
glad you're happy-pants