pubert

Oh god in hell i'll burn at the stake for this one. Its not to late yet i may still find salvation through making a consious decission to change my life around...you know that potential everyone else sees in me may actully be down there somewhere. But than i'm forced to ask myself the question whats the point? I change my life around go to school, actully show up for class (reguardless of stoned I am!) get a desent job, get back out on my own....for what? The hopes of finding an imitation her? Plant my seeds in some random whore so i can experiance the joys of what could've been had I not fucked thigns up so bad? Yeah sure and maybe i'll shit a rainbow while I'm at it!

Truth of the matter is i'm kinda curious to see what happens when I stand up in court and boast about breaking the no contact order. I'm even planing on embelishing it a little making it out like I'm a woman beater and child molester, and than grining like i'm somehow proud of that fact (which isn't true i'm none of those things thank goodness). I only hope theres no backlash twords the mother for not snitching on me to the athorites. Maybe she already has... i hope so. Reguardless this world is not meant for the likes of me. I know it sounds foolish to want to be in prison. But all I do is hurt people. SO i think i should be put in place they house the people who know nothing but hurting others. On top of that I think it is entirely plausable to enginer the biggest prison brake in history, assuming I live long enough to see that dream to fruition.

(this made my 2006)
http://www.smithappens.com/video_emovideo.php