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*Sigh* court tommorow morning. Why i am so preocupied with other things! Taking some shit out of my apartment back to michigan. Happy halloween kid you got court to look forward too.

Our show was a disaster. A brilliant sparkling iridesnant disaster. I forgot lyrics, took off clothes, told terrible jokes, and people ate it up. Fucking little kids. The people we invited who showed up came to see us and left right after words, but not before telling us how much they liked us. One girl invited us todo a house party in november for when...
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Its quater to 3, I'm jittery and hearts twisting in knots and my stomach is bloated saturated in disgust and self loathing. Amidst the swirl of thoughts and head trauma i keep asking myself the same questions. Did she mean what she said? Am I going about this the right way? How is it I can love someone, enough to do whatever they ask of...
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The dreams get wierder. I liked this whole thing a lot better when it all began and the amount of drugs i was doing killed my ability to dream. Now i've been sober for a whlie and it just keeps getting wierder and wierder. MY shows tommorow night at the M.A.C. (Marshall Activity Center). Great screaming at a buncha 16 to 15 yearolds costumes, this...
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So i've been giving a lot of thought to a lot of things. A lot of them are mostly the retorical questions someone asks only of themselves in time of great confussion. For instance, where am I going? What purpose am I serving? Will this pass? Why do I feel so imcomplete? Why does it seem when you want something you can't have, you want...
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what a wierd and insightful day this is shaping up to be.

How many hostages will it take
to put me back between your sheets?
Say the word and the bank clerk goes
I've got nothing left to lose

Hehh...i miss a lot of people in brew town. I miss my friends, i miss the area, i miss my apartment, i miss my uncle, i miss my ex gf's kid, and most of all i miss my...
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A call to action! With all thats transpired and resent knowledge and insight i've gained to my situation i've come to one conclusion. Hoplesses or not, something must be done! Two people love each other. Two people are going bat shit crazy being apart from each other. There are various solutions that would come up wtih marginal results, and sometimes you need a bit more...
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Why didn't i think of this sooner? Seeing as the parental dogma is the end all be all set in stone...go one up. I mean parents and there children are always locked in a power strugle over who knows whats best for who right? Well its a two way street. Go one up. Get the g-parents involved. If those 10weeks (christ thats not a long...
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Falling in love always resembles asfixiation
Lungs banging against the prison bars of your rib cage
begging for air and cigarettes to occupy there time
Your pupils dialate mouth moves independantly on its own
all systems are not go
Houston i think we have a problem here
I can't let go
But we can't hold on to something thats just not there
All i can...
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Yeah that is so benieth me...

Doesn't matter much now does it

Johny Johny Apple Seed
Always was so consumed with greed
Always thinking about himself
Never caring about someone else
his parents always used to say
you'll get no where thinking that way
But Johny was resourseful and cleaver
Leading on friends who didn't know better
And when they had enough
THey'd call out Johnys bluff
Johny apple seed they'd all say
you'll regreat thinking like...
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