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it hurts so much

I have no other option but to move. The people who really care about me are within driving distance of me unlike before. Back in battle creek i got some choices to make. People to avoid. Apparantly words on the street i'm on the way back and some people are looking for me. Some want to kill me, some want some busiess opportunitys i can...
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I'm moving soon. I haven't told my friends yet and i have so many bad ideas revolving around that one, well ok 2 persons my stomach and heart just won't let go of. Cause any contact i try to make with them can put me in jail and its not so much that which bothers me, but its the equivilant of bail jumping and i've...
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"And [he] turned around to look at [her] as [she was] walking away, and [he] said this ain't the end we'll meet again some day.... on the aveanue tangled up in blue"

Bob Dylan your my babbies daddy

God damn i'm not getting over these two am I? So do the right thing half everything you make till the mom has a ring on her finger and the baby has a worthwhile dad in her life. And seeing as there just so damn amazing it shoudn't take long. This is least selfish decission i've made in a whwile.
MY only hope lies with...
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I think in january once i get my drivers liecense back i'm gonna cash in my idex funds and get a new car. ITs supposed to be for school...but i figure if the airforce is paying for it, might as well get something for me.

I've also decided i hate sleep. I had the worlds worst dream. No need to inturpet it. I'm standing out...
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The rolling stones are fucking boss dude don't get me wrong. But there not the worlds greatist. The worlds greatist is and always will be the beatles. Ask the stones they'll tell you that too!

There are somethings in this world you can throw your hands up in the air and say well it didn't work out... I give up! Or you can fight it tooth and nail with everything you got. I haven't talked to my public defender yet, but when I do i'm gonna do everything in my power to remain part of that little girls life. I...
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I'm going back to b.c. for a while...i never wanted to head back there. I'm leaving saturday mourning. I don't want to go but i have no choice. Hopefully my stay there will be very brief. My only hope rides on this airforce thing. I need to grow up, soon and fast. I'm tired of trying to take the easy route out of everyhole i...
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I almost did something really stupid last night. I almost brooke that promise...it feels at this point like theres no hope for me. Not even enlisting at this point is gonna save me I think. I will be moving back to battlecreek for the time being until my hearing is on the 28th. I have no idea when exactly i'm supposed to start boxing my...
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Must keep promise...must keep promise. I'm sure at least one of them misses me...do it for her kido keep your chin up, and your eyes dry and keep those nasty thoughts of making life simpler for everyone around you simpler outta your head.

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Man i love my mom and dad, but if i'm ever gonna keep that promise i made to someone...
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Court today, only there gonna go ok you got a laywer your trials postponed till next week, Going to find out weather or not the no communication act can get pulled though. I'm thinking about heading into work today to pick up a shift and put some cash in my pocket for saturday. But if they inform me, oh sorry the victims want nothing todo...
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