psynapse

it rained all day today. i heard its supposed to continue that way until wednesday. looks like my and alex's trip to the zoo tomorrow is off. i really enjoy hanging out with her. for like, a couple hours i totally forget how miserable i am, how sure i am that she doesn't like me, how ugly i feel, and how hopeless my life is. i guess that period of bliss is worth all the depression and anxiety and lonliness and frustration that comes afterwards. maybe that's what love is? the feeling that is so happy that it outweighs all the pain that goes along with it? and i'm sure you all know the amount of pain.