prudence

hmmm...

I hope it worked that time.

i think i have a crush on this guy i work with...like, a BIG crush. yes, even though i'm married i still get huge crushes on people- i think it helps keep me sane. i think if i tried to only be attracted to ONE person for the rest of my life, i think i'd end up climbing to the top of a hill and shooting everyone down below. so, anyway, i've always liked this guy, and i've always had a little crush on him, but lately i'm finding myself making excuses to go into work on my days off. i just went in there yesterday and bought a couple things -they were stuff i kind of needed to get anyway- and then today i went in again to buy something i really didn't need at all! then, as i drove away from there, i said to myself, 'what the HELL am i doing?! do i really LIKE this guy or something?' have you ever had a crush on someone and not really realize it (or admit it to yourself; that's actually a better term for it)? sometimes there's a guy that i think is cute, but i'll kind of put them out of my mind (or repress them...again, probably a better way to put it...)as a crush prospect, for whatever reason, then one day i'll have a REALLY hot dream about them, and when i wake up i'll suddenly realize that i've actually lusted after them all along. that's what happened in this case, too- i kind of dismissed him as a potential crush, mainly b/c the guy is A LOT younger than i am. then, the other night, i had this- fuckin'-RAD dream about sucking his dick off, and now i can't stop thinking about the guy. and, now i'm remembering how i always prefer to work with him, and how i check the schedule to make sure i'm working when he works. how funny. like all of my crushes, nothing will become of it, but it will still allow me for a little more entertainment, in my head, while i'm at work.

last night i dreamt of inez. i dreamt that i was online AIMing Keroleeeeen, and she was telling me that she was coming to SF to see her uncle. then i told her that, my dad is from day-twah, and that most of that side of the family lives in MI. i also said that, while i normally don't like to see my dad's side of the family ('cept for Uncle Bo...he's cool), I would love to go stay with them just so i could have a chance to hang out with her, demolitionkitten, and suciety. that WOULD be fun.

i was really exited to find out that my work sells diet Vernor's ginger ale, which is really hard to find around here. i think it might be another detroit thing. my dad and his family are really into Vernor's, and a friend of mine's mom is also from detroit, and into Vernor's.

my husband is sick. so, my daughter will probably get sick. but, i probably won't. since i have an autoimmune condition, my immune system is on hyper-drive, which makes me super resistant to colds and flu. instead, my immune system starts attacking things in my body that are SUPPOSED to be there. lucky me.