prudence

christ- i TRY to be nice to someone (a friend of mine), and what happens? i get insults hurled at me. all the misinterpretations about things i've said or written, plus the constant attacks on my character have left me pretty much disillusioned. i thought if i just kept my distance and sort of tried to be just a casual acquaintence i could avoid this kind of friction, but even that's not working. i give up. i don't even care anymore. some people just aren't worth it, especially when you're surrounded by wonderful people who ARE. screw you guys- i'm going home!

no, not YOU guys! who else would i have to vent to about this?!

speaking of going home, i've been thinking about not leaving the site- remember, i had decided to leave for mostly **PERSONAL** reasons, long before this whole soap opera on the site started. then, i posted a set idea for the girls in the 'costume suggestion' thread on the boards, and elise, tatum and possibly gutterstar are seriously considering doing it! if they did that, then i'd HAVE to stay to see how that turned out! god- having the girls do a set with a theme that i suggested would be a dream come true! who wouldn't want to stick around for that?

for all i know, though, spooky might've been relieved that i cancled my account, so he wouldn't have to go through the trouble of booting me himself. i'm not trying to attack him for asking people to leave! i'm just saying that, i really have no idea HOW he feels about me, if anything at all...and well, you know... i think most of us here are wondering the same thing...

i'm concerned about the state of my fingernails...