prudence

bleahhhhhhhhhhh.

i forgot to take my trazedone last night, and i didn't sleep very well at all. i feel like total crap right now. someone's supposed to come by to finally fix our imac [thank GOD!!!!! i'm sick of using the ibook], so i have to wait around for that, then i have to go to work. i kind of wanted to go out tonight, but i'll probably be too exhausted

i'm being bitten to death by fleas. damn cats. i give them their flea medicine, but yesterday i saw a flea hopping on my sheets [which i squished with my fingernails! heehee], and today i woke up with some bites.

i'm all itchy and shit.

i wish i could just ignore certain people and pretend they weren't here, but i can't....and it hurts so much knowing that they CAN pretend i'm not here and/or ignore me, when i'm trying to do what i can to make peace with them, or at least be civil to them. it hurts knowing that they must really hate me. it was so much easier when they had just decided to go anonymous until their account ran out. this, people, is why I go anonymous sometimes [well, recently...i've gone anonymous for other reasons], b/c the reality of knowing there's nothing i can do to make someone not hate me hurts too much.

i have to go cry now.