Oh frustration.

I feel like an asshole for feeling this way because there are people in way worse shape than i'm in, but i can't help but feel this way. I want to know when i'm going to be allowed back to my home and get the rest of my things. I don't necessarily feel the need to be let back in, i just want to know when i'm going to be allowed. Some sort of time frame. I want to know that whatever i have that wasn't destroyed is safe from the criminal element. I'd like some sort of timeframe or something so i can start planning the rest of my life. So i'm not just sitting here, a lump in someone else's house wondering what to do for money. Wondering how long i'm going to have to make this money last. Wondering if i'm going to need to take a job here for the time being or if i should start looking for a new job somewhere else. Wondering if i should start looking for a new place to live now, or just wait till i've gone back and sorted through my things.

There's my brand new $1300 matress. My 2 computers. My 4x10 SWR speaker cabinet for my bass rig, My Protools software that isnt cheap, my 2 studio monitors for recording, 2 tvs, all my pots pans and dishes, pictures, all my books, a bike, dining utensils, cooking utensils, microphone stands, a PS2, DVDs and VHSs, a table, a sofa, other furniture. . .and that's just most of the expensive stuff, or the stuff i can remember. It's not like i'm going to be able to afford a new place. I'm just lucky the storm didnt come after i paid rent. If that were the case i would not have been able to afford putting gas in my car to get out of there. I'm lucky that i even have a car to get out of there, even though its a 12 year old Ford Explorer with 240,000 miles on it.

I hate waiting around. I'm going crazy. I need something to do. I need a new place to live. It was hard enough getting hours when i was working 2 jobs. Now i have none, and i dont know where people are going to need my audio engineering skills. Anyone own a club and need a soundman?