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Been running around so much I not sure what's going on lately. I often wonder if the running around is just a way to mask my loneliness. I hate spending the night alone at home.

Last Saturday I went out with friends. Heidi was there. We flirt - a lot. Used to date, but I was looking for a relationship and she wasn't. Ended up spending the night together. She's been hinting for a while, yet I've been the one holding off. Never thought of myself as being comfortable having a friend with benefits. I always liked Heidi, but I don't think we'll be a couple. I have to admit, it was nice having her stay the night. We'll see what else may happen. We did discuss the issue of where it's is NOT going.

We slept in til 2:30 - then went to the roller derby. Today we're going to the ballet.

I've met a lot of people lately that I'd like to know better - but time will tell where any of it may lead. It seems that I have a few women who are interested in me as well. Odd, I still don't consider myself to be the sort of guy that would attract a woman. Really need to work on the self-esteem. After all, I keep hearing how one of the biggest things a woman looks for in a guy is self confidence.