propbos

So the saga continues. She never even called me on my B-Day. Yeah, she was busy with her son's party. But she should have found time to make a call. We talked a little on Monday. She wasn't feeing well - her mother is sick and she thinks she is catching it. Talked a little more on Tuesday. I told her how much it hurt that she didn't call me Sunday. She made her lame excuses (she gets depressed and can can barely get out of bed, but will never say it - she hates to talk when she's in that frame of mind - I could tell she is in that frame of mind now) and pissed me off. I try to be understanding, but it isn't easy. Before hanging up, I wanted to tell her that I loved her, but I didn't.

I called this morning and left a message. Told her I understand how she is and I try to deal with it. I told her how I wanted to tell her something last night, but didn't - and now I regret it. So I told her in a voice mail that I love her.

We spoke later. She sounds really bad. Nice effect I have on her: tell her I love her and drive her into a deep depression. She said I didn't have to say it - she knows. Of course, she still can't say it.

What will tomorrow or the next day bring?